YOU define ME.??..

Us.. human beings..? Do we have a tendency to hate someone or some past cuz they did one mistake eventhough they would have done a 1000 good things.I wonder why it happens? Why can't we look at the good things and move on in life? Is this why people tend to live with memories which they term as bad? Just think about it. May be the person who was responsible for your present would have done many things to make you happy at that time. Out of love or friendship, they would have done lot many wonderful things to make you smile, to see you happy and some thing happens somewhere that breaks it all. All those wonder days become bad memories because of that 1 (or 2) mistakes which they do and is given top priority. We are prone to do mistakes in our lives. That is what teach us not to do it in the future. But, shouldn't we be thankful to the person who makes us realise it? Our shortcomings et all which has made us a better person today?

Should n't we forgive them for their so called mistakes as though we are perfect?? If we are not perfect and if we also do mistakes who are we not to forgive them? All of a sudden they start behaving strangely as if they didn't know us at all or they do not want to know us. Sometimes it is so strange that it hurts. And, they also live with that hurt? NOTHING can surpass the system we have inside us. It knows when we do wrong or right eventhough some wrongs are compulsively termed as right by the outside world and therefore by us. I do not want to cheat me, let alone others. People start hating others when others fall short of some expectations. Expectations.. which others may not be able to reach to. Life becomes out of control when you expect something from others and when you don't get it, you blame them as if you are perfect. Silly you and me! I do not want to expect anything from others. If i am worth, i will and should get it. That is all i know. I have been getting some really "good" definitions about me.
WHO ARE YOU TO DEFINE ME? .. I wonder.. But, i still love you for what you are.!! cuz you were and are good at some point of time. cuz i also do mistakes and i do not have any right to criticize you or expect anything from you. And, that is all i know and want to know.

a sweet smile..

One of the most interesting "event"in a human life, i wud say is that the initial "attraction" phase btw a guy and a gal, apart from doing some interesting work.Today, in train, it was fun watchin a lovely gal and a smart-looking guy(no, it is not me!!;) ). The guy boarded the train from my station and the gal was in it already. The gal had a small hidden smile always.. she was very restless. turning this side, the other side, trying to do the famous "eye-locking" tactic with the guy. she stood opposite to the guy and i was behind him. she wud turn the other side sometimes and after sometime to his side. She din wanna go away from him eventhough the crowd was tryin to push her off as she was near the door. The guy was listening to i-pod, sometimes closing his eyes as if hez really listening and din notice the girl. this happens all the time with us guys. When some chic passes along, we tend to act "gentleman".. may be tis tru with girls also. Wasted act, i would say. May be those two were kinda "meeting" eachother for quite some days, going by the looks of it. You should have seen her smile. It wuz so .. nice .. to see. They din talk at all. Jus some gestures now and then. The Truth here being both are attracted and both want one to talk and break the ice.I really wanted to help her out in gettin connected to tat fella. That is when i realised, this is one of the most interesting phase of human life. The initial phase.. innocent and funny. Well, guys if yu get some chance like tat, do smile to tat girl. Don't be an A** like me who keep staring at them and take some time to break the ice. By the time, i realise tat i shud talk now, the girl wud already assume tat i m some jerk. Poor me!! bit shy fella. Most of the time, i go ... "duh"..sigh.. how many "opportunities" i missed like tat!! ;P.
So, girls and guys, Put up a smile and make new relations. Every relation starts with a smile... somethin like "Mona lisa" smile :)

I Seek..

I started seeking for it..
I search for it in my mom, dad, bro, sis..
assuming their affection and love will make me attain it..
I search for it my friends
assuming that being with them for some while will make me feel it..
I search for it in my work
assuming that work will help me get it..
I search for it in my probable life mate
assuming that she will help me achieve it..
I assume, I will get it when I do what I want to do..
I assume, I will get it as long as I keep searching for it in the outside of me..
Outside !! ... Everywhere, in everyone, in everything
But, Alas, i could not find it!

There is still a void somehwere!!
But, there is still one place left to search..
Let me search in the inside of me..
to find it...
to find peace!!!
Let peace be with me!!
And, the search still goes on...